Insightful

2 weeks ago I decided that the thoughts brewing inside and out of my face lacked a certain rhythm of steadiness. It was becoming predictably unpredictable and I needed to make sense out of my self destructive behavior. I decided to see a shrink. 45 minutes later, my dear friend had found me to be a delightful complex hybrid of ADD, ADHD, and bipolar combined. WTF? I was thinking maybe a hint one of the three, but a complex version of the combo? You gotta be kidding me? The psych reassured me that it was based on a prediction and that further testing was necessary. I assured him that the world of categorizing was full of shit and that it was a simple case of me not loving myself enough to stop being a depressed fool. He said I was very insightful. No shit. I pay attention to every fucking detail. My real problem is finding where the details apply or why they exist. Tomorrow is session two with my dear friend "the paid listener." What a great job. Maybe that's something to consider huh? A psych major... oh god. It's my tail again... why can't I stop chasing it...